pure snow pure heart ano hi
mou sukoshi no yuuki ga areba
samui kisetsu no seito
tobikonde iketa hazu
demo nazeka dekinakatta

pure snow pure heart kimi to
naitari shita koto mo kuyamanai
wakari kitta tsuyogari
kizuite kureru koto wo
itsu made mo matteru

- me, a name i call myself -

who? alana(lohalani) renee salom

when? may 31st

where? midcoast california

what? pinay (filipino), hawaiian, spanish

age? 20 (but I have the mentality of an 18 year old still)

job? officially, price spice or whatever the heck they want me to do @ office max. eww! nothing like that you pervert! *smack*

free time? making bad webpages, dj-ing badly, watching anime and/or movies, dee dee are, raves, chatting on irc/efnet and aim

form of caffeine? mountain dew, red bull + sobe power = taurcrack

v.i.p? my kirei, Val of course n.n

- currently obsessed... -

anime? love hina, gate keepers, trigun, digi charat

manga? love hina, angel sanctuary, flame of recca

movie? groove, human traffic, fantasia 2000

game? dance dance revolution (any mix), bust a move 2 - dance summit 2000, love hina dreamcast, jet grind radio

3d bishounen? takeshi kaneshiro, alex to, roy cheung

2d bishounen? aogiri yuuhi (ayashi no ceres), xelloss metallium (slayers next/try), shinomori aoshi (rurouni kenshin)

3d grrlz? natalie portman, helen hunt, meg ryan, kelly chen

2d grrlz? konno mitsune (love hina), kaolla suu (love hina), mad hatter (angel sanctuary)

djs? john digweed, ferry corsten, donald glaude, dave ralph

trance? heaven scent - bedrock, sandstorm - darude, 20 minutes of disco glory - dj garth, don't call me baby - madison avenue, drowning - cleveland lounge

other music? 12 volt sex, bowling for soup, no doubt, hamasaki ayumi, sakamoto maaya/kanno yoko

clothing? kik wear/girl, caffeine, old navy, hot topic, gap, mr. rags

coplay possibilities? kaolla suu (love hina), mad hatter (angel sanctuary), hikura kazuhi (megami kouhosei)

- other (in)sanities -

mayoi omoi - michi my oneesama who is usually subject to my whining/ranting

copacetic - emi ms. yaoi no miko herself

illegible scribbles - steph my partner in mahou shoujo obsession crime

nonsequitor thoughts - tanzy she has a real name...we chose to ignore it for the most part

basic black - puuie umm...look out, she bites?

ecchibi - kristi the snoozing lump on the floor in the yaoi room at acen

mental static - juri the famous photographer who captured the essence of the psycho bunny killer

thea - thea whose new place i still need to visit

ecchi pitas - yuuhi my favorite toy for h-gnawing

fudo muyo - dom one of the new additions to my 'must torture' list

- i want to get off this ride -

hinata sou




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"Life is kinda like a snowglobe... Everything is fine and at peace inside of one... until some friggin' shmuck comes along and shakes it all up! ...but in the end, everything turns out to be even more beautiful than before..."
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it is? saturday 01132001 01:06am :: i am? cast away

that's not as bad as it sounds really. n.n; i just saw the movie tonight. not bad but not great either. i think zemekis did a real good job as far as pacing and creating the 'mood' during certain scenes of the movie. Like when the plane is out of control, i really felt the panic the scene was playing out. and the first time he tries to escape the island and is fighting the break, I don't know about you but waves are a lot bigger up front than they are from the shore. they really do have the power to knock you over and slam you into the hard, razor sharp coral reefs. the end was very bittersweet. it just occured to me that in the end, it was like he had been 'cast away' all over again. definately a different movie from who framed roger rabbit and forest gump but still fairly good. i give zemekis a huge pat on the back for a movie that calls for about an hour of either no dialog or dialog with a volleyball. n.n; knowing what both of my parents think of my current relationship...doesn't or make things any easier. they don't approve of it but there's nothing they can really do to alter it. i learned something too that i had always wondered about since my parents seperated 10 years ago. i can't believe it's been that long. i have a hard time really remembering anything from that time. i have such a terrible subconscious habit of forgetting 'bad' events in my life. i had always wondered why my parents had never gotten divorced. can you imagine that? they haven't lived in the same house for 10 years...and yet they're still legally and technically married? how messed up is that? well, i found out why my dad never filed it himself. when my grandma (mom's mom) was in the hospital, and more or less on her death bed, my dad went to visit her. no one else was there and...she made my dad promise not to divorce my mom. to this day, i still don't really know why my parents decided to seperate at all...but to learn something like that so many years down the's just a shock. i can't even describe the emotion that comes to me when i think of it. i haven't thought about these things in so long... i guess i just accepted things as they were and just moved on. i wonder how things would be if my parents had never seperated. how drastic of a change that would have on the events of my life up until now... i can't help but think things would almost be totally different. i can't think of how but...they just would have been. argh...i hate thinking about 'what if's... even though a lot of the things of my life haven't been totally good, i don't if i'd really ever want to change them. *shakes head* i don't know. when i was younger and read choose your own adventure books, i would always mark my last 2 decision pages just in case i got a 'bad' ending or something. life does not have that luxury though.

ended at? saturday 01132001 01:48am :: while? listening to set 2 of madison avenue's andy van off of ministry of sound

it is? friday 01122001 02:08am :: i am? parentally advised

so i talked to my dad today on the phone to see what the plans for tomorrow/later today are. we more or less figure them out and then he starts talking about my relationship with val. as anticipated, he made points as far as where his moral beliefs are, how he has always encouraged me to make my own decisions of how i love my life...and basically said he didn't really give a shit. n.n; if anything, he's just really worried about the rutt i'm in as far as being in a dead-end, counter jocking retail job and not finishing my high school requirements. i kinda saw that coming too but just wasn't expecting the intensity i guess. n.n; i mean, it's not like he's given me a stamp of approval on my choice of dating but it's just not on the top of the priority list. and although my dad is rather point blank blunt during his talks, i took everything very well. no water works this time around, but then again, it -was- over the phone and even though they're there, they are -really- there. you don't have to look them in the eye, y'know? *shrug* oh well, i guess that's another thing more or less settled. on a completely random note, somethings i forgot to mention in the last entery. watched the new 'reality' show temptation island. i don't know why but such shows are just amusing to watch because even though they may be scripted, i think the reactions are partially real because humans are into instant gratification whether we are willing to admit it or not. maybe not all the time, but it is there. kind of like the last remenant of primal, animal instict (apart from having sex. :) and...dammit...i know there was something else... ah hell, i'm too tired to want to remember. i'll write it down or something if i remember later today. slee~p

ended at? friday 01122001 02:19am :: while? listening to i need your lovin' (like the sunshine) by marc et claude, dark moon remix full vocal

it is? Wednesday, January 10, 2001 11:49 p.m. :: i am? peachy keen...well sorta

so~ the bigwig district manager came by the store today, and after all the spazzing yesterday, it actually paid off. it seems that the store has actually made a comeback and is looking a lot better than a couple of months ago, with room for improvements of course but hey, it beats being bitched out. n.n; so that went well. mmm...i love shania twain's music. i don't care if i don't look the type to listen to her stuff, i do. deal with it. ; she's the best thing to come out of the hell known as...canada! well, at least that i know of and can think of at the moment. n.n; i hope val doesn't still feel bad about not signing onto aim last night. i mean, it's not like i really had anything to talk about but...i guess it's just the overall comfort that comes with knowing she's at least there. ugh...i do think i'm being very dependant though... maybe it's kind of a good thing to put a lil more distance between us. but i really can't seem to help myself for the most's just the way i look forward to ending my day. we work pretty much polar opposite shifts from each other so i really only have that 1something hour of time to talk to her. i need one of those things commonly refered to as 'a life' probably. n.n; i'm just usually too tired to do anything after work unless i plan it and -really- need to do something. i've been using the last hr of my break the past couple of days to attempt to nap in the breakroom, which usually gets me through the next 4 hours, just enough to get out of there. which reminds me i have school tomorrow. oog...i've so been slacking on that. if anything, i should really be focused on that. i need to get that done and out of the way to get on with my oh-so-anticipated life. then after that, i -really- need to figure out what i want to do for a good 30something years of my life as far as career goes... i dunno, it'd be great to become a world class dj, web designer, film editor or other such multimedia things but...the problem is, i pretty much like to do all those things equally. @.@; nye~h...oh well. i guess for now, i'll just focus on short term goals. like sleeping so that i can get to work on time on a regular basis. n.n; val, i'm sorry i was pissy last night. really, don't worry about it. i was just being stupid and immature as usual.

Don't be stupid
You know I love you
Don't be ridiculous
You know I need you
Don't be absurd
You know I want you
Don't be impossible
I'm mad about you
Can't live without you
I'm crazy 'bout you
So don't be stupid
You know I love you

errr...i'm the stupid, ridiculous, absurd and impossible one, not you. n.n; >.< i'm outta here!

ended at? thursday 01112001 12:19am :: while? listeing to (If You're Not In It For Love) I'm Outta Here - Shania Twain

it is? monday 01082001 10:39pm :: i am? all singing dancing crap of the world XD

gotta love fight club quotes. n.n; so yeah...i was late 40 mins to work and was warned again. i think i'm hitting that mark where i've been working there so long, i don't feel like conforming as much as possible. ugh...i want a job that doesn't come with a uniform. i have all these clothes but 5 days a week, i'm stuck in a navy blue polo shirt and friggin' khakis. getting a liiil tiresome. well, maybe if robin gets that job at borders he can hook me up with a position there, and it'll probably be a lot more tolerable than office max. or so i'd hope. if not, then i could always try to pull off the stunt in empire records. n.n; urgh...why does my side hurt? i don't think i laughed -that- much the night before, even if i had, i don't think it'd hurt there. i probably just pulled something or slept weirdly. man it was so hard for me to keep my eyes open at times today at work. the little nap during lunch helped a lot though and any other time i zoned out during the day. n.n; mmm...i wonder if val and i will be able to meet up or something for valentine's... argh, i still don't know what i'm going to get her for sure. i want it to be different from stuff i've gotten her already... *sigh* we'll see. i'm thinking it really might have to wait until around fanime... stupid financial responsibilities. n.n; hmmm...i wonder why so many people/old school ravers have such a thing against 'plur'. peace, love, unity, respect/responsibility. i mean, i guess i can see why they think it's 'fake' but...i would think that's more a problem of people deluding themselves, not so much a problem with the idea itself. in this day and age, i do think it's a joke to that that we can follow such a concept 100% but that doesn't mean we should completely disregard it either. that's like wiping it out before even trying, and as much as i think it -is- unrealistic to live completely by those ideas right now, i would hope that it's something every person strives for. *yawn* anyhow, i think that's enough nonsense from me for today. must sleep before i'm late again tomorrow. n.n good night sol system!

ended at? monday 01082001 11:19pm :: while? watching the dance of the hours by amilcare ponchielli from the first fantasia

it is? monday 01082001 03:16am :: i am? socially refreshed

whee~ what a fun day even though it had kind of a late start due to my own doing. n.n; gome~n minna. so the roll call for this get together was me, robin, flo, eric, michi, phing, cat, lucinda and maura, and i arrive at eric's around 5 or so with flo, robin and phing. we venture off to eat, stopping for gas and a free carwash. n.n i kinda dust eric in racing or at least at the green light cuz he was too busy revving. :P nyahahahahaha~! hatchback! automatic! we try to get into a texas-ish restaurant (which was still playing xmas music for some reason O.o;), prevent lucinda from taking a sign and decide to hit t.g.i. friday instead...but not before i break out extreme bop-it! >D muwahahahahaha~! let's just say it was a very good idea to bring it to amuse ourselves while waiting for a table and what-not. i think we freaked out just about every person that walked by us except for the little kid who said that they wanted one too. n.n; the fact that we were making ecchi references to the commands (twist it, pull it, flick it, etc. n.n;) or making up our own types of commands (spank it, flog it, lick it, etc. n.n;) probably didn't help much either... so hr later, we're seated and practically inhale the appetizers when they arrive (thai chicken, mozzarella sticks, calamari) and about of us ordered alkie. n.n; i personally got a mudslide. uma so~... *.* the banana ice cream soda thing michi has was pretty nummers too. =9~ thankfully, i just got a light buzz and was able to function more or less normally. i was just more genki then usual. n.n; after dropping off everyone's leftovers to my car because they didn't want to i just said i'll take them for my lunches this week, we head over to the theatre to see what's playing. while everyone is standing around, i run into a friend from filipino dance in high scool. she looks more or less the same but's still been a while since i've seen her or anyone else for that matter from los altos/mountain view. even longer since i've talked to anyone from sunnyvale. oog...i should call them or something to say hi and catch up. i remember saying that i should call pia a couple of days ago but i haven't gotten around to it. but anyways, i exchanged #'s with her so hopefully i'll see here around more than just by chance. n.n anyhoo, after much diliberation, we end up...going back to eric's house to watch groove, which it seemed like everyone enjoyed, if not for the 'rave' elements, at least for the humor. it's a pretty easy movie to just classify as a 'party' movie and pay attention to the jokes and what-not, without the weird british humor like in human traffic. after that, we said our goodbyes, exchanged hugs and glomps then went off our seperate ways. so yes, it was a very good day for me. n.n i even got to get a couple of more shirts at hot topic too (tmnt shredder and no doubt! >D). now i just need to worry about paying my mom and dave back. >.o geh...ah well, i should -really- sleep now so i shall. zzzz...

ended at? monday 01082001 03:39am :: while? doing nothing. i need to sleep! z.z

it is? sunday 01072001 02:07am :: i am? mundane...moo~

it was starting to get a bit crowded on the page so i decided to archive it. feh...once again, i have not much to talk about today. work was work. i feel like i really didn't accomplish a great deal seeing as how i found some way to stretch out each task... urgh, i now know the frustration of trying to tie down the cardboard stacks in the bailers at work. first time around, we couldn't even tie them off because there was too much. so we empty out, and fill it up a second time...only the wires snap as it's being lifted onto a palette. note: it's a bad idea to stand near a bailer when those wires snap. remember the dude with the laser whip in johnny neumonic? same thing. >.< anyways, after that i was like 'fuck it...i'm going to lunch' and thankfully didn't have to deal with it after that. n.n; it did look like the boys were able to successfully get it out the third time(s a charm) around. o/~ let's hear it for the boys! o/~ *ahem* but yeah...that was more or less the highlight of my day. pretty sad no? n.n;; ah well...guess life can't be a 24/7 party unless you put some effort into it. comics are fun. i like reading megatokyo, penny arcade, little gamers and thin h line (i don't know why... it's just entertaining in that sick way...). this rant on online comics is brought to you by my oneesama. *sigh* i hate being the whiney puppy dog one...where is Va~l? n.n; rrgh...nasakenai na uchi wa. -.-; demo shikata nai desu. Val wa uchi no taisetsu na hito. a~h...mou ichido chyuu~ itai desu~. ;.; dakishimete itai. *bonks head on wrist pad* long distance is good and bad. good because you -really- appreciate and cherish what times you have with each other...and the bad works pretty much the same way. you think about them so much you start looking into buying your own private jet or helicopter because as much as i like driving just takes too damn long. n.n; *groan* i wonder if things would change if we were to move closer to each other... i guess it's inevitable that there will be a 'time of adjustment' to it all but...i dunno, i guess the fear of getting sick of someone being around or habits they have or yeah... stuff like that. i wonder if her connection is just out or she went somewhere...probably one or the other. *yawn* feh...i'm just rambling so i guess i shall pass out. must be awake to socialize and stuff tomorrow. g'nite g'nite where ever you are kirei. o.o

ended at? 01072001 02:35am :: while? listening to junky boy from maze tv. gotta love random play on winamp. n.n; o/~ don't touch junky boy...mada mada lonely boy... o/~ *does mill-chan dance* ^o^