pure snow pure heart ano hi
mou sukoshi no yuuki ga areba
samui kisetsu no seito
tobikonde iketa hazu
demo nazeka dekinakatta

pure snow pure heart kimi to 
naitari shita koto mo kuyamanai 
wakari kitta tsuyogari 
kizuite kureru koto wo 
itsu made mo matteru

- me, a name i call myself -

who? alana(lohalani) renee salom

when? may 31st 

where? midcoast california

what? pinay (filipino), hawaiian, spanish

age? 20 (but I have the mentality of an 18 year old still)

job? officially, price spice or whatever the heck they want me to do @ office max. eww! nothing like that you pervert! *smack*

free time? making bad webpages, dj-ing badly, watching anime and/or movies, dee dee are, raves, chatting on irc/efnet and aim

form of caffeine? mountain dew, red bull + sobe power = taurcrack

v.i.p? my kirei, Val of course n.n

- currently obsessed... -

anime? love hina, gate keepers, trigun, digi charat

manga? love hina, angel sanctuary, flame of recca

movie? groove, human traffic, fantasia 2000

game? dance dance revolution (any mix), bust a move 2 - dance summit 2000, love hina dreamcast, jet grind radio

3d bishounen? takeshi kaneshiro, alex to, roy cheung

2d bishounen? aogiri yuuhi (ayashi no ceres), xelloss metallium (slayers next/try), shinomori aoshi (rurouni kenshin)

3d grrlz? natalie portman, helen hunt, meg ryan, kelly chen

2d grrlz? konno mitsune (love hina), kaolla suu (love hina), mad hatter (angel sanctuary)

djs? john digweed, ferry corsten, donald glaude, dave ralph

trance? heaven scent - bedrock, sandstorm - darude, 20 minutes of disco glory - dj garth, don't call me baby - madison avenue, drowning - cleveland lounge

other music? 12 volt sex, bowling for soup, no doubt, hamasaki ayumi, sakamoto maaya/kanno yoko

clothing? kik wear/girl, caffeine, old navy, hot topic, gap, mr. rags

coplay possibilities? kaolla suu (love hina), mad hatter (angel sanctuary), hikura kazuhi (megami kouhosei) 

- other (in)sanities -

mayoi omoi - michi my oneesama who is usually subject to my whining/ranting

copacetic - emi ms. yaoi no miko herself

illegible scribbles - steph my partner in mahou shoujo obsession crime

nonsequitor thoughts - tanzy she has a real name...we chose to ignore it for the most part 

basic black - puuie umm...look out, she bites?

ecchibi - kristi the snoozing lump on the floor in the yaoi room at acen

mental static - juri the famous photographer who captured the essence of the psycho bunny killer

thea - thea whose new place i still need to visit

ecchi pitas - yuuhi my favorite toy for h-gnawing

fudo muyo - dom one of the new additions to my 'must torture' list

- i want to get off this ride -

hinata sou




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"Life is kinda like a snowglobe... Everything is fine and at peace inside of one... until some friggin' shmuck comes along and shakes it all up! ...but in the end, everything turns out to be even more beautiful than before..."
- hi-mi-tsu!

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it is? tuesday 01302001 02:10am :: i am? RAR! >/

** once again, you will be subjected to a flurry of bitching by yours truly. you have been warned **

RAR!!! so i'll get straight to the point. bran. ergh! rar! mrph! @#$^$$#@@#%$$@#!! i one has perfected the way to tick me off more. okay, so it's been -extremely- well established that bran doesn't like raves. i know this. i know that he knows i know this. so why the fuck do i need a rude ass reminder everytime i or someone else brings up anything related to it?! can -anyone- answer me this? i mean, other than the fact he's a bigoted dickhead. seriously! get this...first time i post about a 'rave' (it was actually a club but they were having 'rave' djs there) on otaku outpost. his response was this: uh. this friday. I go to the only ParaPara club in town. Arcade Infinity. Har Har Har. Dominator. all i responded to that was: Ri~ght. nothing more and i was called a hater because of that. so here's the punchline...i announce another party on otaku outpost. and bran, being his usual self-appointed tyrant self, responds with this: I say Jahi should go. And if he sees any teenybopper candy kids in pajamas and pacifiers doing the raver walk, he should punch the fuck out of them and then pull out the folding chair to finish them off. That will be dominator. ummm...does anyone else think that the role of 'hater' has been stuck to the wrong person here? now sure, i could write this off as bran making a (very poor) attempt at being funny but you know what? i'm sick of it. i'm on the brink of telling him off. i have to stop myself sometimes because i don't want to be irrational and just lash out. but unfortunately, i think that's what it takes for a clue to register in his brickhead. once, okay. twice, fine. three, four, five and on times...sorry, i only have so much patience. i don't care if he's joking or not, it's not a joke to me anymore. the fact that he goes out of his way to belittle something i enjoy whenever i'm there, is just like waving a red cape in front of a bull. if he's really out that to annoy the fuck out of people, by all means, i'm ready shove my horns where the sun don't shine. am i being unreasonable about this? is this 'dominator' shit? and why the hell is he responding to a norcal party post, when he practically lives in socal now? ah fuck it.

ended at? tuesday 01302001 02:44am :: while? listening to magic knight rayearth op/end songs. a~h...natsukashii~...

ps - dammit...i really wanted to rant about something else but this shit came up. oh well. -.-;

it is? sunday 01282001 02:52am :: i am? random lovely sleeping in until 2. n.n; didn't really do a great deal today. worked on a song list with robin for a mix tape. so far the choice of trance in order is:

Bedrock - Heaven Scent
Hi-Gate - Caned and Unable
Darude - Sandstorm
Des Mitchell - Welcome to the Dance
Binary Finary - 1999 [Gouryella Remix]
Watergate - Heart of Asia [Des Mitchell Remix]
Forcefield - Visions Of Eden
Vicious Circles - Vicious Circles [Moogwai Remix]
Lange Feat. The Morrighan - Follow Me [Dj Jam X & Dumonde Remix]

something needs to go before heaven scent but we're not sure what yet... it was hard enough just coming up with that list. n.n; it may seem short but each song is at least 8 mins long so~... not exactly sure when we'll start recording it but when we do, you know you'll all get a copy. n.n oh yeah, also took the love hina character selector test. the results are a bit different from what i expected but i guys tell me. n.n;

# 1 Narusegawa Naru
# 2 Otohime Mutsumi
# 3 Konno Mitsune
# 4 Aoyama Motoko
# 5 Kaolla Su
# 6 Noriyasu Seta
# 7 Sara McDougal
# 8 Urashima Haruka
# 9 Maehara Shinobu
# 10 Urashima Keitaro

but was just kinda a 'whatever' day to recover from the (lack of) clubbing last night.

ended at? sunday 01282001 3:00am :: while? listening to pure snow - yuko sasaki been a while since i've heard this song. winamp is on random too. heh.

it is? saturday 01272001 04:57 a.m. :: i am? mildy satisfied...

so today was the day for clubbing...or so i had hoped. :/ first, i get a really late start from santa cruz cuz my mom got into the shower before me. i swear we need like a sign up sheet for the bathroom. ~.~ we get to sunnyvale to pick up stuff for my mom at my old house around like, dash over to mountain view to drop off my dad's atm card, make a quick stop at 7-11 to get taurcrack ingredients then are off to pick up steph. we get to steph's around 8:15 or so, venture around to find a bank of america atm (because they charge up the ass if you use a different atm) so we can eat something beforehand, hit a mcdonald's then are back on the road. going the wrong way because someone didn't want to tell me which exit i'd be getting off on. =P dammit aniki, this is why i like to know ahead of time, even if it's hella far up the road! so i know how far i can speed before knowing i have to start moving over to get off. blah! =P no directions for j00 anymore! anyways, so we backtrack and finally get there, get decent parking...because the club has reached full capacity and wasn't going to let anyone else in. -.- of course, 30mins afterwards, the door people announce they're gonna let in a few more people, so a couple of us decide to hang around to see if we get lucky. another 30mins later, they announce fully capacity again and people want to just bounce. which is cool, most had been there for a while before we got there. i felt so bad. =( i promise i'll make it up to you guys next time! *grovel* so i get inside (since i was on the guest list) and scope things out. heaven scent was spinning just as i came in. *.* that kinda brought my spirits back up. it was a pretty nice club actually...but i guess i'm a lil' spoiled from all the room you have at like massive raves and what-not. =P main floor was trance, 2nd floor was whatever. i heard them play hip-hop, jungle and disco house...unfortunately, a couple of the djs trainwrecked pretty hard on the 2nd floor but that kinda help my confidence as far as dj-ing goes. i now know that i'm not the only one who messed up big time when transitioning and what-not. n.n; huzzah! anyhow, as soon as they start jungle, i escape to the main floor cuz...i'm sorry. i'm just not a junglist. n.n; i'd rather listen to cheesy clubby or hard trance. the hard trance actually wasn't too bad though. i heard operation blade twice (the song used in the movie blade during the bloodbath scene in the beginning). there was also a trance remix of the last of the mohicans theme and that one opera-like song used at the beginning of michael jackson's history videos. sorry, don't remember the actual title. n.n; but yeah, they both sounded really cool. mars was pretty's too bad the stupid cops closed the party in the middle of his set. man...closed at 2 when it was supposed to end at 3:30? wtf let the dogs out?! bleh! so i basically had a total of like 2˝ hours actually inside the club. >.< oh well, i can't complain too much. i did get in. and for free for that matter. argh...i wish i wasn't so antisocial and shy. i know like a handful of people from ilr just by sight and/or name from other parties i went to...but not because i've actually talked and introduced myself and what-not. i don't know why i can't just open up and drop the stupid barrier i put between myself and other people at these things. *sigh* i'm just not one to break the ice really. i have to have them talk to me first. bleh. hopefully, i'll get over it soon. again, sorry steph, holland and gawy. i promise next time, i'll pick a party we -all- get into!

ended at? saturday 01272001 05:27am :: while? trying to ignore the smell of cigarette smoke from my clothing. eww~. >.<

it is? monday 01222001 11:15pm :: i am? baka baka

if you didn't notice already, sunday's post somehow grew a little in size and actually makes a lot more sense. thank my better half, val for noticing that the other day. i hate it when i leave one little " mark in a line of html in links. just kills everything. n.n; anyways, i'm extremely tired for some reason. i don't remember doing anything too grueling but i'm still tired. maybe it was the excess ddr-ing. n.n; *shrug* oh well. anyways, for those who are actually interested in the club this friday, here's the very much more official info for arc. i figure most of those interest will see this if they haven't elsewhere. n.n;

club arc grand opening -january 26, 2001
dj neo
dj joe

$10 before 10pm
$20 at the door
18+ w/ valid id

234 south b street, san mateo
secured parking lot (free)
secluded patio area

:: NO bandanas, sling t-shirts, backpacks ::

"The club closes at 3:30am and we have a strong line-up every Friday night. The club has two floors on two different levels. The main room spinning trance and the second floor spinning jungle/d&b/2step. Sahid will be our rotating resident. Check him out in March. The VIP line will be a no wait line depending on how crowded the club is. We have an enormous guest list so the line all depends on how many vips show up. Thanks for the positive feed back."

okay. z.z

ended at? monday 01222001 11:23pm :: while? having southside - moby featuring gwen stefani stuck in my head @.@; rrgh!

it is? sunday 01212001 03:26am :: i am? party pooped from pooped party

oog, haven't blogged in a while. not much has really happened except for the past 2 days. i'll start with recent and work my way back i guess. so tonight, there was -supposed- to be a house party hosted by bravesushi/ed of ilr in saratoga. party was supposed to start as sundown. we (robin and i) get there around 10. we walk in just as the hosts mom is saying 'it's over.' and ed's trying to make it so that at least the people on the original attendance list can stay. but being the asian parents they are, they still say 'party's over. out.' why, this was never actually explained but we can only speculate 1) noise level, 2) parking and 3) a lot more people than anticipated and listed. so after about 15-20 minutes of standing in the garage after that announcement, they tell everyone to go to amc 14 in westgate so we can determine a new place to have the party. would think, that they would realize that a movie theatre lot on a saturday night with a whole bunch of new movies out...would be packed as fuck...but they didn't. luckily, we found parking reasonably quick and proceed to stand around for another 30-45mins while people try to figure out another location. finally, after a security patrol car shows up and gives them the motivation to make a quick decision, we end up driving to a house in east san jose, where we spend another 30-45mins trying to figure out what to do, only to be booted out due to relatives coming over for who knows what reason. by this time, i've well developed the idea that my questioning to even attend this 'party' around 7pm was a sign or camouflaged clairvoyance of some sort. by that time it was 12:30 and we decide 'fuck it. we're out.' although i can't say the evening was a complete waste. i did finally get to socialize a -wee- bit more with other members. i really haven't made that much of a mark in the ilr community and really want to but i feel like such a newbie overall to just the raving scene in general. oh well, there's always the club arc on fri... n.n before all that though, i went shopping with my dad for my xmas present and i finally gave him his (i got him all 3 bruce lee figurines. woo~ watta!). i got new casual shoes finally. i always need at least 2-3 pairs of shoes. one kinda dressy/semi-casual, one that i can wear with any outfit because they're black/white and usually a pair of navy blue shoes because i have so much blue stuff in my wardrobe. n.n; but yeah...they're sketcher sport shoes. they have nifty reflective material on them. *.* i'll have to scotch guard them tomorrow. also got a pair of jeans because i just can't seem to find where my other ones went. o.o i need some cargo pants too but oh well. next time. the day before that, i finally got together with eric to buy my new turntable needle. it's so pretty. *.* i got the ani hina 2 book as well for love hina. but oh my gulay...i was soooooo friggin' happy...when i found that solid grooves...had SANDSTORM by darude. i abso-fuckin'-lutely love this song. shit...i got bompf'd (lightly hit n.n;) by a friggin' dumbass taxi on my way to sf jtowne to have dinner with yuuhi-tachi since he flew in...and i just shrugged and said 'fuck it. as long as there's no huge ass dent in my car, fuck it.' and robin just stared at me like 'wtf?! you just got hit by a car!! that sonofabitch is -hella- lucky you got sandstorm!' after we got to j-towne and took a look, i was enough more carefree about it. you can barely tell i was hit. there's just a lil' bit of paint missing, which is no prob. i was about to pull over and get all excited over the loss of paint. but yeah, got a lot of love hina books i needed to catch up on, had a loverly dinner at juban then wished all those departing to l.a. a nice, don't-get-too-broke trip. n.n; i think we attracted a lot of attention playing my extreme bop-it though. it's such a fun game! i can't help but bring it to the gatherings! n.n; oh yeah, and val, err...yuuhi still wants permission to uhh...'thank' me for giving him trance that inspired him to start working on his music again. n.n; but yeah, i'm really tired from driving around to a non-existant party and should sleep. i need to finish cleaning my room tomorrow. @.@; one last thing though since sleeping came up...dreams. dreams can be just a wild ride of nonsense and fantasy but i truly think that they are beneficial at times's just hard to really realize if you just write it off as a dream though. i mean, yes, they -are- just dreams...but so many things can trigger them. something you see, hear or talk about before you sleep, thoughts and memories buried deep within you, fears... i dunno...i guess my point is that...even though you're physically asleep, sometimes you need a dream to wake you up to notice or realize something. anyhow, sleep for me. anyone who wants to come to arc in san mateo on fri night, email or call me! n.n let's hook it up!

ended at? sunday 01212001 4:03am :: while? hoping the heat reaches my room tonight. brr. >.<

it is? tuesday, 01162001 10:17pm :: i am? tested

today just seemed like the day to 'test' myself. i took a couple of personality tests. my results are as follows.

evangelion test

# 1 Misato Katsuragi
# 2 Ryouji Kaji
# 3 Pen-Pen
# 4 Aoba Shigeru
# 5 Asuka Langley Sohryu
# 6 Hikari Horaki
# 7 Kaworu Nagisa
# 8 Ritsuko Akagi
# 9 Touji Suzuhara
# 10 Makoto Hyuuga
# 11 Maya Ibuki
# 12 Rei Ayanami
# 13 Shinji Ikari
# 14 Gendou Ikari
# 15 Kouzou Fuyutsuki

i just have to wonder how I can be like a penguin? o.o; onto the keirsey results...

Portrait of the Teacher (ENFJ)

Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:

- Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.

- Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.

- Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.

- Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.

Even more than the other Idealists, Teachers have a natural talent for leading students or trainees toward learning, or as Idealists like to think of it, they are capable of calling forth each learner’s potentials. Teachers (around two percent of the population) are able -- effortlessly, it seems, and almost endlessly -- to dream up fascinating learning activities for their students to engage in. In some Teachers, this ability to fire the imagination can amount to a kind of genius which other types find hard to emulate. But perhaps their greatest strength lies in their belief in their students. Teachers look for the best in their students, and communicate clearly that each one has untold potential, and this confidence can inspire their students to grow and develop more than they ever thought possible.

In whatever field they choose, Teachers consider people their highest priority, and they instinctively communicate personal concern and a willingness to become involved. Warmly outgoing, and perhaps the most expressive of all the types, Teachers are remarkably good with language, especially when communicating in speech, face to face. And they do not hesitate to speak out and let their feelings be known. Bubbling with enthusiasm, Teachers will voice their passions with dramatic flourish, and can, with practice, become charismatic public speakers. This verbal ability gives Teachers a good deal of influence in groups, and they are often asked to take a leadership role.

Teachers like things settled and organized, and will schedule their work hours and social engagements well ahead of time—and they are absolutely trustworthy in honoring these commitments. Valuing as they do interpersonal cooperation and harmonious relations, Teachers are extraordinarily tolerant of others, are easy to get along with, and are usually popular wherever they are.

Teachers are highly sensitive to others, which is to say their intuition tends to be well developed. Certainly their insight into themselves and others is unparalleled. Without a doubt, they know what is going on inside themselves, and they can read other people with uncanny accuracy. Teachers also identify with others quite easily, and will actually find themselves picking up the characteristics, emotions, and beliefs of those around them. Because they slip almost unconsciously into other people’s skin in this way, Teachers feel closely connected with those around them, and thus show a sincere interest in the joys and problems of their employees, colleagues, students, clients, and loved ones.

mmm...i think it's more or less right on except for the commiting to get to work on time thing. ah shit my love hina poster is falling! brb. @.@; okay, all better. ah~ i love the love hina xmas special. it reduces me to a warm, fuzzy pink puddle of genki goop. n.n; i think being told about val's dream effected my dream last night because the same thing happened except it was in a different location. n.n; or she was projecting thoughts to me...i dunno. either way, it was great dream. n.n oo~g...i think i'll be having mucho money problems soon again. ah well, i could always sell stuff that i don't absolutely treasure.

ended at? tuesday 01162001 10:39pm :: while? watching the ending credits of the love hina xmas special n.n

it is? monday 01152001 11:26pm :: i am? 'i have a dream...'

this one is gonna be short entry because i should've been sleeping half hour ago. @.@ so i finally got a domain name for myself. of nadesico reference. i don't really plan on housing much nadesico stuff at all, if any but i liked the name anyways. sue me. :P but i've finally started working on that but of course, that spawned another project i want to do which isn't really hard, just involves a lot of scanning. i love my aoshi/misao doujinishi. i really wish tae was still around. she was fun to talk to and bought me those dj when she was in japan. oh well, maybe she'll pop into #fy again soon. n.n i had a weird set of dreams last night. i should write down my dreams just so i can remember most of the crackdom that emerges from my subconscious. one was driving around in the country, getting lost, then ending up at ocean cliffs. the other is not quite a reoccuring dream but i know i've had it at -least- one time before, maybe twice, where i'm not necessarily possessed but there's something spiritually/supernaturally out of place in my chest. i complain of difficulty of breathing and an unexplained pressure and so my grandmother (dad's mom) comes over and recites old latin church (sancti blah blah blah) stuff while holding a hand over my chest, and all of a sudden, i'm fine again. then it jumped to a 3rd dream, where i'm walking on the sidewalk and am waiting to cross the street at a crosswalk but a whole bunch of ravers decide to randomly walk and stand in the middle of the street with oncoming traffic and they get hit by a bus and die. i get all shocked and depressed and the police come to investigate and then i woke up. i don't know...the only one that seriously weirds me out is the 2nd one... it's just freaky to me. maybe it's from watching all that weird unsolved mysteries type stuff from when i was kid up til now. i've always been fascinated by it for some reason. my parents thought i was a bit weird for that. :P what else...oh yeah. val's dreams. i won't go into detail because that's her private subconscious stuff but man...i dunno. either i am projecting a lot of thoughts to her or she's holding back on me or both. it's really hard to tell. o.o but oh well, it's something i think we do need to work on here in reality so...i guess it's a good thing? n.n; anyways, sleep for me. z.z

ended at? monday 01152001 11:49pm :: while? listening to invaders by hatiras in dedication to martin luther king jr.